Girls Camp............................ 12 years later.

I had the opportunity to go to camp as the 3rd year leader in Cloudcroft this year, and let me tell you it was SO MUCH FUN... I am convinced that leaders get far more out of it then any of the girls or maybe it was just because it was a complete answer to my prayers to go and be able to get away from my job and figure out whats next in mycareer or maybe it was that I met and got to know some ladies whom I now consider to be some of my best friends. While at camp we learned a song called "I am his Daughter" by Nicole Sheahan and I instantly fell in love with the song and cry everytime I hear it now such powerful words and I hope that the girls know and can feel how true those words are. In the end it turned out to be a great week and one that I find myself thinking about often! ;">

Deflated.

So over the last couple weeks/months it seems like everyone around me is getting married and or engaged... And last night for some reason was the straw that broke the camels back... It gets really disappointing to hear and see all these people around you get what you have been working so hard to achieve. The truth is I was to be married I want to find that one guy who makes me better then I am by myself... I feel like I have been doing the best that I can, I have an education, I have a full time job... I am in school to get more education, I have callings at church, I have friends and am trying to be the best me that I know how... And yes I know its all in the time of the Lord and I have to trust in his timing but it sure is hard to sit back and watch everyone around you get what you want... So last night I cried... and just like always I will put a smile on my face and be happy for them but deep down inside its hard... really hard.