Deflated.

So over the last couple weeks/months it seems like everyone around me is getting married and or engaged... And last night for some reason was the straw that broke the camels back... It gets really disappointing to hear and see all these people around you get what you have been working so hard to achieve. The truth is I was to be married I want to find that one guy who makes me better then I am by myself... I feel like I have been doing the best that I can, I have an education, I have a full time job... I am in school to get more education, I have callings at church, I have friends and am trying to be the best me that I know how... And yes I know its all in the time of the Lord and I have to trust in his timing but it sure is hard to sit back and watch everyone around you get what you want... So last night I cried... and just like always I will put a smile on my face and be happy for them but deep down inside its hard... really hard.