Choices, Decisions and a trip to EL PASO!!

I just went home for a couple of days with my sisters to have a shower for my cousin Jennifer who is having a baby boy in June, and it was a blast, but I do have to say that the best part was being HOME, and with my family. We went to Cloudcroft and White Sands, yes there is such a place look at the pictures ( I will have to post the pictures later, I can't find my camera cord)!!! Then we just stayed home and had a blast letting all the kids play with the hose in the backyard, there was a trip to Jacksons, and we even watched Twilight... I never thought I would do that, and yeah sure not my cup of tea (so weird) but it was not that bad, ALTHOUGH I did fall asleep!!! Ooopppss!! :)

Anyways, now here is the hard part and I am going to need lots of your opinions here. While at home I was talking to my dad about work and school and he suggested that I look into moving back home and working and going to school at UTEP or even El Paso community, for a couple of reasons and those being:
1. I could live rent free
2. School is much cheaper there
3. I love El Paso
4. I could work less, and go to school more
5. Not that I don't love Utah, its just I don't know.

So there is my choice, I know that whatever I choose its going to be hard, but I find myself happiest when I am at home. I just can't imagine not living close to my sisters and seeing my nieces and nephews all the time, that probably would be the hardest for me. Its not about the friends, because I can make those wherever I go, I just don't know what to do. Part of me just tells me to do it because its only a couple of years and I can always move back when I am done with school. But then on the other hand, I think that moving away from my sisters and brother will be harder then I think, and for as much as they come to visit or I can come up here it still won't be enough. So what do you all think, please let me know!! :)

Stress.

As I sit here in class at this moment, we are doing presentations on stress.... Boy Howdy is this.........................fun.. Not only have I learned about what it can do to the body, my gosh I am doing everything wrong. I know that stress is a part of our daily lives but my gosh it sure isn't fun. Anyways, thats deep enough for me.

I am so excited because not only am I going home to El Paso next week, I get to miss school-- I haven't missed yet and yeah yeah I know I should but my gosh do I need it, actually its more that I need to miss work, but thats a different story.. Because stress has been on my mind lately, or should I say just since yesterday when I started my presentation, I was trying to think of ways that I vent--- can we say CAR dance and sing, and if you need a good cd-- can we say JOCK JAMS, yes the 90's cd... its great!!!You really need to dig it out of the drawer, I know you all have it.....

Anyways thats about it, its kind of random but whatever, thats my life!

10 Years today.....

I was just a little sister, who had really only known my brother being sick and going to see him at the hospital or just knowing that he was there, and not being able to go see him there. It was a Friday night and my mom took Donald and I out to dinner and a movie, we saw "The Other Sister." When we walked through the door that night the phone was ringing, and it was my dad saying that we needed to get up the hospital because Kenneth had phnemonia and it wasn't looking to good. When we got to the hospital and went into his room and sat and talked and waited. Then it came time for Donald and I to say goodbye because we would be going to the Houghtons for the night because we didn't know how long Kenneth would be like that. Not knowing that it would be the last time we said goodbye to him. Anyways, we left the hospital just as planned and were almost to the house when Hettie's phone rang to get back to the hospital because things had taken a turn for the worst. We missed him passing away by about 10 minutes and when we walked in the room it was really somber and quiet. It was a feeling that I will never forget but certainly can't describe. After that night, it was followed by a couple of days of confusion with my sisters all coming back in town and people coming over and even going with my parents to plan every detail of his funeral. That was an experience in and of itself with everyone that came to the funeral, and even the viewing. After that I remember going to Ruidoso, just our family to have a few days to relax and just be together. Sorry if this is so long but I don't think that I have ever written it down like this.

Thinking of him comes in waves, and it seems more recently I have thought of him more often. Weither its in my car and our song comes on the radio or Kristin and I sit around and talk about what it would be like if he was still alive. What would he be like, how would our family dynamic be. Its so wonderful to know what we know with the gospel but sometimes it doesn't make it any easier.

I really hate Jason... and thats all I am going to say... Melissa you are better off with out him....






So I am really bitter about this season of the Bachelor. For the whole season you think that Jason is this stand up guy who knows how to treat women and has just had his bad luck with them.. Well last night changed it all, and sure whatever you have feeling for Molly, BUT YOU SHOULD OF PICKED HER IN THE FIRST PLACE, and not humiliated Melissa on National TV, and no matter what he says, she had no idea that it was coming, and Molly on the other hand-- you could totally tell that they had already talked and she was not a good actress and knew what was going to happen, and she kept on trying to hide it but really didn't. Jason, you are a dirty rotten, and I am glad that Melissa stood her ground and called you what she did. The end!! :)