Choices, Decisions and a trip to EL PASO!!

I just went home for a couple of days with my sisters to have a shower for my cousin Jennifer who is having a baby boy in June, and it was a blast, but I do have to say that the best part was being HOME, and with my family. We went to Cloudcroft and White Sands, yes there is such a place look at the pictures ( I will have to post the pictures later, I can't find my camera cord)!!! Then we just stayed home and had a blast letting all the kids play with the hose in the backyard, there was a trip to Jacksons, and we even watched Twilight... I never thought I would do that, and yeah sure not my cup of tea (so weird) but it was not that bad, ALTHOUGH I did fall asleep!!! Ooopppss!! :)

Anyways, now here is the hard part and I am going to need lots of your opinions here. While at home I was talking to my dad about work and school and he suggested that I look into moving back home and working and going to school at UTEP or even El Paso community, for a couple of reasons and those being:
1. I could live rent free
2. School is much cheaper there
3. I love El Paso
4. I could work less, and go to school more
5. Not that I don't love Utah, its just I don't know.

So there is my choice, I know that whatever I choose its going to be hard, but I find myself happiest when I am at home. I just can't imagine not living close to my sisters and seeing my nieces and nephews all the time, that probably would be the hardest for me. Its not about the friends, because I can make those wherever I go, I just don't know what to do. Part of me just tells me to do it because its only a couple of years and I can always move back when I am done with school. But then on the other hand, I think that moving away from my sisters and brother will be harder then I think, and for as much as they come to visit or I can come up here it still won't be enough. So what do you all think, please let me know!! :)

Stress.

As I sit here in class at this moment, we are doing presentations on stress.... Boy Howdy is this.........................fun.. Not only have I learned about what it can do to the body, my gosh I am doing everything wrong. I know that stress is a part of our daily lives but my gosh it sure isn't fun. Anyways, thats deep enough for me.

I am so excited because not only am I going home to El Paso next week, I get to miss school-- I haven't missed yet and yeah yeah I know I should but my gosh do I need it, actually its more that I need to miss work, but thats a different story.. Because stress has been on my mind lately, or should I say just since yesterday when I started my presentation, I was trying to think of ways that I vent--- can we say CAR dance and sing, and if you need a good cd-- can we say JOCK JAMS, yes the 90's cd... its great!!!You really need to dig it out of the drawer, I know you all have it.....

Anyways thats about it, its kind of random but whatever, thats my life!

10 Years today.....

I was just a little sister, who had really only known my brother being sick and going to see him at the hospital or just knowing that he was there, and not being able to go see him there. It was a Friday night and my mom took Donald and I out to dinner and a movie, we saw "The Other Sister." When we walked through the door that night the phone was ringing, and it was my dad saying that we needed to get up the hospital because Kenneth had phnemonia and it wasn't looking to good. When we got to the hospital and went into his room and sat and talked and waited. Then it came time for Donald and I to say goodbye because we would be going to the Houghtons for the night because we didn't know how long Kenneth would be like that. Not knowing that it would be the last time we said goodbye to him. Anyways, we left the hospital just as planned and were almost to the house when Hettie's phone rang to get back to the hospital because things had taken a turn for the worst. We missed him passing away by about 10 minutes and when we walked in the room it was really somber and quiet. It was a feeling that I will never forget but certainly can't describe. After that night, it was followed by a couple of days of confusion with my sisters all coming back in town and people coming over and even going with my parents to plan every detail of his funeral. That was an experience in and of itself with everyone that came to the funeral, and even the viewing. After that I remember going to Ruidoso, just our family to have a few days to relax and just be together. Sorry if this is so long but I don't think that I have ever written it down like this.

Thinking of him comes in waves, and it seems more recently I have thought of him more often. Weither its in my car and our song comes on the radio or Kristin and I sit around and talk about what it would be like if he was still alive. What would he be like, how would our family dynamic be. Its so wonderful to know what we know with the gospel but sometimes it doesn't make it any easier.

I really hate Jason... and thats all I am going to say... Melissa you are better off with out him....






So I am really bitter about this season of the Bachelor. For the whole season you think that Jason is this stand up guy who knows how to treat women and has just had his bad luck with them.. Well last night changed it all, and sure whatever you have feeling for Molly, BUT YOU SHOULD OF PICKED HER IN THE FIRST PLACE, and not humiliated Melissa on National TV, and no matter what he says, she had no idea that it was coming, and Molly on the other hand-- you could totally tell that they had already talked and she was not a good actress and knew what was going to happen, and she kept on trying to hide it but really didn't. Jason, you are a dirty rotten, and I am glad that Melissa stood her ground and called you what she did. The end!! :)

I have nothing to Blog about!!!

So part of the reason that I haven't blogged in a while is due to lack of exciting information in my life. I constantly go to work and school everyday and thats about it!!! But I do have to share a funny story about something that I over heard last night. I was walking down the aisle at the local Wally World and hear this lady absolutely yelling at someone, and being ME, I most definantly had to walk over to see what was going on. Now I don't know the whole story but this lady was yelling at the checker for not being friendly (which to each his own, seems a little overboard if you ask me) but anyways-- I found myself down the "As seen on TV" section trying to listen to what was going on, and all of a sudden this customer says "No you WASN'T nice". I mean I am no English scholar by any means but really?!?!?!? First of all, if she just didn't say "Hello, how are you" when you first walked in her line, give her a break, and second of all-- IF you are going to yell in the Wal Mart line-- please, please know how you speak correctly!!! Oh the joys of Happy Valley Utah!!!! So I thought that was pretty darn funny, well thats about it, school is great and only 5 more weeks and I will have my 1st semester done, right now I have A's in all my classes so thats a relief.
Anyways, sorry the only picture is of my want to be boyfriend Denny Hamlin.. I am telling you one day!!!

I know in my last post I said that I would post some pictures and here it is 2 weeks later and still no pictures..... Things are BUSY!!!! If I am not driving, I am at work, and if I am not at work I am at school and if I am not at school I am at home trying to sleep!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH, somedays I am more tired than others but things are getting better!!!! Right now I am sitting at the Sorenson's house watching Kennedy and Jack while Kimber and Tyler are out of town.. and honestly its been a nice break from homework and stuff, BUT I do have to study for my first test on Monday so I am so thankful for my brother who said he would come over here so that I can study for a few minutes. But other than that nothing new has been going on..... Work is crazy busy, even more so than what I was doing in Logan, and school well thats just different, especially if any of you know how much I ......loved....... BYU-ID, well thats putting it nicely!!! :)

And no I am not sugar coating everything right now, its been HARD and yes I have thought about if I made the right decision but hey, I know what I am doing is what I need to be doing and soo there you go... I am here and alive and happy.... Check back in a couple days and then we can really see how things are going after I have taken that Math Test and have seen my score on it!!!! But for now... Here is the only picture saved on Kimber's computer so enjoy till next time.

Long time no post...

I know I know I haven't posted anything in a while but things have been, lets just say a little busy.. I survived my first week of school and work... I don't have any pictures, I will have to post some later...so then I can post about my new room, school, work, and the BACHELOR ( GO MELISSA).....

Christmas in El Paso....

Its been a wild ride here in good ol' El Paso for Christmas starting off last Friday with an 18 hour car ride that only should of taken 12.... AHHHH, stupid snow!!!! and my family has done a million and one things and its been great I am sad for Monday to come when Kimber and I have to pack her car up and drive back... Its been 50 here and just NICE!!! Anyways---- Santa came to my house and brought me a LAPTOP with a Printer/Scanner/Fax/Copier all in one... I am so LUCKY!!!! Anyways--- I really ate a piece of Humble pie when I went with my little cousins down to the Rescue Mission to make and feed about 160 people..We also made Sugar Cookies, went to Chicos Tacos, Had parties, went and saw Marley and ME ( GO SEE IT). Anyways-- as always enjoy the pictures!!! :)

Life is a changing as I know it......

Well my life is chaning as I know it and although I am SUPER happy about it, its a little scary for me... Its a welcome change that I brought on myself and as I find myself a week away from being out of Logan for good and starting school and work I find myself wondering... SHOULD I REALLY BE DOING THIS?!?!?!? My life was great here and although things may not of always been picture perfect I can't help love this place I learned to call home... So here is a list of things that have changed and or I have learned in about the past month:


1. Got my school schedule planned out.
2. I got a new job at Avenues Midwifery
3. Moved in with my wonderful friend Amber and her family.
4. Moved out of my apartment and have my life in 2 places now.
5. Have learned that its okay to change.
6. Driven through Sardine Canyon WAY to many times.
7. Got the 24 hour bug.
8. Been greateful to have family I can help and who can help me.
9. Not taken enough pictures
10. Given my notice to my AWESOME boss.
11. Trained my replacement.
12. Really thought about what is great about my life.
13. Said goodbye to some great friends.
14. Got a not so good haircut.. :)
15. Colored this not so good haircut.
16. Had a meltdown about this whole CHANGE..
17. Saw the happiness my neices and nephews bring me.
18. Learned my parents always have the best wisdom.
19. Went to the First Presidency Christmas Devotional.
20. Walked around Temple Square to see the lights.
21. Have been/ currently are living out of a suitcase.
22. LEARNED LIFE ALWAYS ISN'T WHAT I WANT OR THINK IT
SHOULD BE BUT ITS PRETTY DARN GOOD!!!!!


I don't know there are some a few of the things that I can think off the top of my head.. Yes I have cried and know that next week will I probably be a bigger emotional reck than I have ever been or would ever want to be.. I am going to miss this place and the wonderful people who I can friends and family. And although its only an hour North I still won't be here everyday. So now before I start to get teary eyed again I am going to end this post... (and for my sister who don't like to read such long post)..... Oh gosh I don't even know what else to say!!! :)

PS.. For those of you that want to know... I updated Weston and Jennise's blog.. and you can thank me later!!! :)

Thanksgiving

Well Thanksgiving has come and gone... and to my suprise... I have come away with little or few pictures... So I now refer you to my sister Kristins blog for pictures and detail of what went on with Brown Family Thanksgiving Extravaganza... We went shopping... ate lots of food... didn't get much sleep.. and had a whole lot of fun... Even the El Paso Santa made his/her way up here for the West and Whites...Oh and the week before we went to Kimberley's friend Amy and Mikes Wedding Reception... She looked so happy so there are some pictures of that in there too!!! :)
Anyways-- hope everyone had a good day!!!

Can somebody do this to their house...

I would sit there for hours and hours just watching... I promise not to look in your windows!

Thanksgiving and Birthday

On Sunday we celebrated Thanksgiving with Kimberley and her kids and then my brother Donalds birthday. So I went down on Saturday and Kimber and I got everything ready. We got out all her China and Crystal glasses and then her silver... It was great and we set the table and made the Turkey, Corn, and Pies.. It was great.. After dinner it turned into a Wii Bowl-a-thon, then Baseball, then some golf. Anyways-- enjoy the pictures!! :)

Crazy....

Well its been a crazy couple of days and its going to be a crazy couple of WEEKS!!! This past weekend I went down to Salt Lake and was able to watch Kennedy and Jack overnight so that Kimber could go to her friend Amy's bridalshower. I had a good time with them even though they went to bed real early so it was only like 20 minutes that I saw them!!! Then Saturday Donald and I met up with Brad and Katie Kuykendall and went to the BYU vs. SDSU game and the Cougs won 41-12.. The last minute or so of the game I started cheering for the other team just so that they would score (they were not going to win anyways) and if looks could kill I would be a couple of feet under ground!!! It was great and we laughed about it...

Now for these days I am just packing and packing... and MORE packing... I am moving out of my apartment next Friday so I don't have to pay another months rent and with Thanksgiving coming AND the U of U vs. BYU game we decided to move on the 21st... Hopefully I will have everything in boxes so that all we have to do is put it all in the U-Haul and away we go!!! Its crazy and I would be telling a story if I said that I wasn't almost going crazy because I really have nothing set up down in Salt Lake. I am still waiting to hear about a job and where to live, the only thing so far that I know is which classes I am taking and when school starts!!! AHHHH, I could go crazy in the next couple of days!!! Anyone have some ideas or girlfriends I could live with!!! :)

I CAN'T WAIT!!!

For this!!! :)

I saw this on Oprah and Had to share!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p05THqLhECI

Sorry if you cry... I DID.....

PS: For all of you that live near or around Maddox in Brigham City.
Most of you know Daryl and Ashley Larsen. For those of you who don't, they are a young couple here in Perry, who just lost their baby to a rare lung disorder. Their loss is truly a tragedy. They are now experiencing the beginnings of what will be a land slide of medical bills. In an effort to aide them, there will be a one day fundraiser at the Maddox Steak House. On November 5, you can call Maddox at 723-2916 and order the Turkey Steak dinner. You can choose the 2 or 4 family meal at the regular price. All proceeds will then be donated to the Larsen family. You do need to remember to mention the Larsen family name when ordering. You can then pick up your meal at the take out window in the back of Maddox. It will be for lunch and dinner.

Update:
Maddox rocks! You will be able to order Any Family Meal at the take out on Nov. 5th and the profit ($10 for family of 4 or $5 for family of 2 meal) will be given to Daryl and Ashley Larsen. Any meal people! Eat Extra! This is an awesome opportunity to help people we love by eating. Please remember to mention the Larsen family name when ordering and/or paying. Keep getting the word out. I can't believe how well the word is spreading, but we have got to keep it up.